why? why? why?
why do I get so angry when someone takes my clothes without permission? why do I have a meltdown when someone puts my clothes in the washing machine & dryer? why do I get so *** off when someone hangs up/folds my clothes? why do I feel so aggravated when someone puts my clothes in my closet & doesn’t put them in the right place? why do I have to have the clothes in my closet organized from most worn to least worn & in categories? why do I feel like screaming when my things are messed with? why can’t I just be normal? why do I get so overwhelmed & anxious when my clothes are washed with someone else’s? what is this? why am I like this?
It sounds like you're dealing with a lot of emotional intensity around your belongings, especially your clothes, and it’s clearly causing you distress.
@ilovemycat16 It sounds like you're experiencing a lot of strong emotions tied to control and organization, especially around your personal belongings. For many people, having control over their space provides a sense of safety and stability. When that’s disrupted, it can feel overwhelming, triggering frustration or anxiety.
This isn’t about being “normal” or not. Everyone has their sensitivities, and yours might be tied to personal boundaries or a need for order. I’ve been through similar struggles, and I’ve written about this kind of overwhelming anxiety in my E-book, The Silence. It explores where these feelings might come from and how to find calm when things feel out of control.
You’re not broken for feeling this way, and you’re definitely not alone. Understanding yourself and your reactions is a powerful first step. If you feel like it, take a look at my E-book. It’s helped others, and I hope it could help you too.
@ilovemycat16 As I turn the pages of life, sometimes words emerge that uncover the stories hidden deep inside me. These are the stories that are not shared with anyone, nor do they find their way to my lips. But inside, in some corner of my heart, these stories shout, cry out, and demand answers.
It's possible that you are neurodivergent/ there's some OCD going on from the sounds of it. Try not be hard on yourself for it. We all have different perspectives and experiences of things. That does sound difficult and frustrating- I wouldn't like it either and I also organise my clothes in that way- makes sense. I have my main section of clothes that I find most comfortable/versatile all in one spot. Nothing 'wrong' with you- we're all wired differently ð©·